Hi, Everyone. Hope you are all having a good day. Here's Corbin's latest post:
"I missed you yesterday. All of you. Took the day off, let the tidal wave of thoughts from pervious weeks hit shore. Went to bed last night and hadn't posted. Debated it but then thought it to be a good thing. I don't want this relationship here to be "routine," a "daily task," but instead evolve organically, and... here's that word again... "TRUE." While I had many things to discuss - mostly it being Sunday and missing my mom on Sunday, I think her favorite day of the week - instead I took in the day and let it simply work it's way through me, experiencing it. Quite a few times I had that weird urge to pick up the phone and call her - ooopps, not happening. Lots of those moments. I also did a few things in her name. Some work in the garden and quality family time here at home.
This week is going to be a little odd, lots of that "mechanics of death" stuff I talked about last week - estate business and even our private family and close friends memorial. I also plan, at some point to "list" for you here some "details" people have been asking....
How did she die?
What kind of funeral/memorial are we having?
What did we do with her remains and what will we do?
Once i have all this information I'll post it as a FACT SHEET.
Not really for discussion but to answer a few questions many have asked. Just enough detail so we are all on the same page moving forward in celebrating her life and not dissecting the passing of it. Her memory and the work she leaves behind for me, for us far outweighs the trivial information. That said, like me, many of you want closure and these kinds of details do offer that. I respect that.
Also in there I will tell some of you who've asked how to get a DVD of the movie Carpool Guy that I gave you the link to Saturday. I'm trying to arrange it so I can get it to you very inexpensively and create a way for some of the proceeds to go to one of mom's charities. I'll also discuss some of the ideas I have for a book which many of you have encouraged me to write. However it plays out, I'd love for it to grow right here, out of our discussions. This is where my heart is now. This is where I'm celebrating my mom and the truest thoughts of my being seem to be generated. I'll stick with that. You are well of love and truth for me.
Regarding that, as we move forward - and I REALLY DO hope we can continue this conversation for years to come - I can't tell you how much it's helped me on a daily basis - I want to make sure I also expand on thoughts that aren't directly related to my mom. For those who have read my posts for some time now, well before my mom's passing, you know I sometimes like to express myself (aka ramble and rant) about issues as related to things happening currently in the news. I now know those views were indeed shaped by my mom, they are, to some degree, an extension of her views, life lessons and observations she taught me and encouraged me to put an eye toward and relate. I want to get back to those writings. Some will mention my mom, others might not, but know that they'll be informed by her and in a way continue to celebrate her. This is how she will stay with me, to keep experiencing and expanding my life as she would have me do. In this way it gives me great comfort knowing that she lives on. And as I said the other day, oddly, it makes me feel closer to her in death than in life. We will touch on truths. And love. Those were the purest moments with my mom. Visiting for visiting sake, the requisite card on mother's day - all nice - but not always the most true and pure. I feel extremely close to her today, this moment. Her magnificence is almost overwhelming.
I will start that by saying, through observation, the world is in a strange place... broken. And this isn't emotional fallout from my mom's passing, but instead something I've been saying for years now, both here, and in my films. But it is fixable. She knew it and I know it to be true. And while the mechanics of our problems; upside down economy, unemployment, state of education to name a few will need major overhauls, none it will happen unless we adopt the most simple and again, TRUE LESSON, my mother taught me; Love for one another. Compassion and Hope. Through a deepest faith possible that we are good and showered by God's Grace and beauty. Those were Christ's lessons so while I love my mom, they aren't all that new. She didn't invent the wheel - she just kept rolling it forward. Start there, the rest will follow."