Hi, Everyone. Hope you are all having a wonderful day so far. Corbin posted this about two hours ago:
"Up in Vancouver today for Psych. Wow, the traveling... Moving around so much does cause one to get introspective, maybe being so high, above the clouds, above it all, time to reflect on those things that bind us to the earth but not the truths of the Heavens Above. (Unintended plug for my next movie "Beyond the Heavens - October release - stay tuned!)
But I do tend to reflect when flying, traveling between "here and there." Felt very close to my mom last night when flying last night... connecting the dots of the whole Emmy event, reaching out to her, seeking her truth, her honest. Landed with a feeling of closure about it all... I could only see her bright smile, no words, just a smile on her face, content... her eyes slightly squinted, challenging me, daring me to continue in the same manner. Yes! A challenge! That would definitely be her... "Are you truly comfortable in yourself, your expression? Do you have the balls!" She would quietly do that to those she mentored... teach us, breath the lesson, and then say, "now, it's up to you... do you have the stuff to back it up?" I suppose that's what she told me when I decided to become an actor... "go train, learn it, become it, become one with it... now, can you stand on the stage and take it? Can you take the criticism, can you take the surge, the rush, the overwhelming thrill of the moment and keep your balance? Can you take the defeat, the pain, the mud? Can you swim in the mud because that's often where you'll find yourself." Yes, she would train us then challenge us.
That was what the Emmys were about, a challenge. Yes, it was an honest attempt to honor her as she would have it ... but the bigger picture... the journey she handed off to me in her passing... it was a challenge. Do I play it safe or do I be true? It was only in her truth that my mom could get away with half the stuff she did... because it was honest, human, and always, always done with respect and her ultimate love for her fellow man.
So yes, up there at 36,000 feet, where I was still questioning myself, the truth of my actions, she was smiling... "okay, you passed that one... but still, do you have the balls... your journey has only begun."
And then I landed. And truthfully, I feel more in touch with everything God intended for me than ever... both in my personal life, but maybe even more importantly in my professional life. I know I want to tell stories of faith, family, and community... highlighting the best of our human capabilities for compassion, love and ability. I know I want the stories to travel from a truthful darkness to the light, the magnificence of our creation and gift... and this is very important... I want the journey from dark to light to be honest, feel familiar with the the truth of our times in it's portrayal. Does that take certain language? Does that take certain events on screen to feel true? I think it does. But I also know it will offend some. In the end, it will always, always be about enlightenment and a for me, a journey toward good, the magnificent and ultimately what I know to be God. The only question I wrestle with... how pot holed do I make the road to it in my quest for honesty, to bring those into the fold who would flinch at anything but that. I want my very own sons to recognize the road... be drawn to it... and know the light at the end of the tale. I do this for them, for their generation and all who feel a bit disconnected from a loving humanity that was intended.
That is the greatest gift my mom gave me - both in life, and in her passing... She put my shoes at the door with a piece of fruit and a biscuit to fill my belly, a taste of water to keep my whistle wet... and a note that said, "Go forth! Stay true and go forth!"
The truth of her message was so clear, all in that little smile and twinkle in her eye... I felt so close to her up there, above it all...
Maybe we were soaring a little higher than 36,000 feet!
Truth and love, the words of the day."