Hello, Everyone. it has been a while since I posted here. But, I thought you would enjoy Corbin's latest post:
"An inherited responsibility. After leaving my mom's house over the weekend I didn't really feel it, but I suspect she had the final word by pinning notes on my back -sending her son into the world with lessons to take with me as I move forward. As in life, in death she somehow found a way to share more great prescriptions for living. I didn't feel her doing it of course, but quickly became aware of their presence.
On Monday I was feeling rather extraordinary. Some weights lifting, the clearing and dispersion of her physical world coming to an end... a bright future ahead. And the sun was indeed shining, a fine autumn Southern California day, cool and sunny. I was about to meet new representatives who showed an enthusiasm to help me on the next legs of my career, both as an actor and writer/director. All great stuff. On the way to the meeting - I was a bit early - I wandered into a store and saw a magnificent suede coat. Tried it on. "Loose those ten pounds you vowed to do yesterday and this thing will look fantastic! Go ahead, but it. Price is a little hefty, but heck, you deserve it, you've worked hard all year, splurge. Beat... beat... beat...
Then that whisper in my ear, or rather one of those notes pinned to my back came alive... "You don't need it. Yes, it looks great, but really you can do without this." Mom? I took it off and laid it aside... actually hid it amongst the racks - it was the last one - so I could go to my meeting and then on my way back to my car afterward I could "consider it again." Fantastic meeting. Yes! I want that coat! I marched back to the store and found it undisturbed right where I hid it and tried it on again. Wow! Now I really want it. I think I actually started for my wallet and then suddenly stopped. That voice again. This time CLEAR - my mom. Inherited responsibility. Those are the words I heard but honestly didn't understand. INHERITED RESPONSIBILITY. "Don't buy it. Put it down and walk away. You do not need this. You still have kids in school and don't fool yourself. Sure, you can afford it and yes, you met new representatives, but there are no guarantees... And really, you have plenty of fine coats." Mom? Absolutely.
LET ME BUILD THE STORY HERE...
My mother worked hard her entire life and made a fine, still modest living compared to many others in the industry. (Hollywood) She lived a relatively modest life without all the perks and obsessions one assumes we in "Hollywood" always have. She did however manage to always earn just enough through hard work and shear determination to ALWAYS be there for us, her children and grandchildren if any of us came up a few bucks short. (You could say we were her obsession.) She was extremely generous in that way - always there if one of us needed to get past a shortfall. When she died she also left us each a modest gift. Astonishing really, considering she did this alone, on a Soap Opera where actors don't normally make what others on Prime Time TV or in movies make. Soap Actors work harder than anyone I know; longer hours, more days, for less pay. Not bad pay, to be honest and yes, often well above your average income, but still, not what one usually assumes is the case. But she did work hard and was not only able to help us but actually save a small amount which she shared generously with all of us upon her passing.
I had decided, well before she passed, that "death money" was something I'm not comfortable with, no matter who it comes from. And I never planned my future based on it. So it goes with my mom. Yet, there it was, a little chunk of change to do "something with." For me, it meant a little more freedom in selection of TV and Film projects yet the ability to maintain the high cost of education for my children. Nice way to use the gift. And yes, a few things around the house that always needed "a few extra bucks."
What the money DID NOT MEAN was a "suede coat that I didn't need just because I was feeling good on a bright, sunny day!" The note pinned to my back shouted out loud and clear now... you have an "Inherited Responsibility." Not just about money but ALL THINGS! From the lessons and wisdom she passed on to me, to the "things," and yes the money left to me, I have now "inherited a responsibility" that comes with those gifts, those treasures, those wisdoms.
So what does it all mean?
I will continue here, with you, and in my films to convey her wisdoms that so many around her benefited greatly from. I will continue to tell her stories. I will continue to focus on family and community. I will continue to march for love and point to a higher power (God - for me) as a way to get there. And yes, I will begin to practice a restraint that isn't always natural to me and sort out what I "want" from what I "need." A suede coat... beautiful. But is it being responsible with the gifts left to me, those I inherited from my mom... absolutely not.
I put the suede coat back on the rack, in open viewing for others to purchase and walked out of the store, lighter and better for it. The sun still shone and the crisp air felt more alive than ever."